Thursday, April 24, 2008

an open letter - he knows who he is

You're lame. Lame and a baby. I realize that I hurt your feelings. But did you ever consider that you were hurting my feelings with all the events that led up to that? Or when you wanted absolutely no contact for 6 months, and you bade me take every little thing with me when I left so that you wouldn't have to face any memories at all?

Pardon me for trying to stay friends. I deeply apologize for what was clearly an invasion of your personal space -- sending you a friend request on facebook. Even though we live 1000 miles apart, you won't even acknowledge me on an impersonal website. No I take that back. You did send me a 2-word note, getting the message across that you want nothing to do with me.

I hope you're reading this, because I know you check up on me via my blog. You know I've been very respectful and have not told the internets anything. I hope you know that in a coupla months when you're a well-paid professional I will be asking for the money you owe me. You remember, all that credit card debt I accrued moving us across the country and then supporting us while we lived in the most expensive city in the country. Yes, I realize that you had some loans to cover some of our living expenses, but there were times when you had absolutely no income, and that's why my credit card debt is so high. I even had to sell the car that I loved, in order to barely scrape by.

I want you to know that I'm done trying to be friends now. The only result is that I start crying, and I don't need that . I'll be like you and pretend that the last 11 years of my life never happened. Tomorrow would have been our 11th anniversary, as I'm sure you're aware. But I've come to realize that I'm much better off without you in my life, as you still make me cry without even talking to me.

So long and farewell.


flutter said...

see ya, pal.

mar said...

aww des. i'll pretend my tears today were for you instead of talking with s, again. i've got some of those same problems you mentioned. (you can guess which ones they are besides the tearing up.)

super des said...

mar, you and I need to hang out eating ice cream watching sappy movies together.

mar said...

and are you bein' tricksy on facebook?

might I add...? said...

hang in there, des. sorry that it's hard right now.

SUEB0B said...

Sounds like he is really hurting. Just think how tough it would be to lose someone like you.

super des said...

mar, facebook is just being a jerk.

And suebob, that was a very sweet thing to say. <3

Arlene said...

May the fleas of a thousand camels infest the crotch of the person who
screws up your day and may their arms be too short to scratch.

jessabean said...

I'm so sad about this. Hugs from DC.

We enjoyed meeting both of you for that one night, and at the time would never have imagined so much would be bubbling underneath the surface.

So go on and cry, because this sucks. But you're in a better place now. Love you!

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