moody penguin

Sometimes you just have too many things to do in too little time. Deadlines impossible to meet. Sometimes you’re overwhelmed by everything or by nothing. Sometimes you just need a cry.

This happened to me last night. A mixture of stress & depression*. I think it was mostly (yet another) realization that I hate my job, and that my grad school application is due next week and I haven’t turned it in yet even though I had planned on being super early but my essay’s not done because Craig thinks it needs more substance and I want to be done with it and if I turn my app in late then I might not get accepted and have to work for at least another semester in the job that I hate. Plus I still had to do the dishes and make my lunch and work on my essay, besides the things I wanted to do. And go to sleep.

Whoo. You see now? There was some crying. And some hugging. And some “it’ll be ok” –ing and assurances that thanks to Craig’s law-talking job at a firm this summer, he will make almost my whole year’s salary (grumble) and we can afford to get me a more satisfying (even if lower paying) job.

And today I’m in a great mood. Go figure.

*I would normally call it destression, but that name is completely misleading.

** the title is a reference to something I bought while in CA… a color-changing mood-necklace in the shape of a penguin that says “best” on one and “friends” on the other. (Liz has “best.”) It was $4. Of course I bought it.